Tuesday, March 20, 2007

A small glimmer to light up a life

I arrived on time.

I'd been told the program would start at 5:30 and I managed to slide in on the money. Had there not been a stalled semi on the interstate, I may have been there five minutes earlier but it didn't matter as the lights didn't dim until ten-to-six.

The gymnasium was full by the time I got there and I just managed to find a seat in the fifth row. In that crowd, I was worried that Lilly wouldn't be able to see me. After all, I wasn't there so much to see the program as I was to see her. It was her first real "school program" and really, her seeing me out in the audience was all that really mattered.

The students filed in and took their places on the risers. Lilly appeared diffident, out of place and it made me wonder if she really wanted to be there, singing and going through the motions. As far back as I was, I had to try - I waved.

It was if she had daddy radar, she recognized me immediately, aglow, lighting up the room with her smile. She waved back and shifted her mood, confident and happy to be there. During the program, she kept looking my way to see she had my undivided attention.

When it was over, I picked her up and carried her outside. She's four feet tall and almost 50 pounds but I could have sworn she was just a baby. My days of carrying her are numbered but she will always have my undivided attention.

9 comments:

Mamacita said...

Starkly beautiful and absolutely true. You've nailed it.

landismom said...

Great, great post Jim. I'm glad you will always be there for her.

trusty getto said...

Simply beautiful :)

melina said...

Yay for our daughters! Thanks for sharing.

MizMell said...

Marvelous! I have experienced that same reaction from my own children at concerts and the like--kinda makes you realize what an important job parenting really is! It's a shame more folks don't take it as seriously as you do.
Your children are lucky to have a Dad like you!

Karen M said...

That's lovely, Jim! And neither one of you will ever forget that day. You might think she will, but she won't.

Daryl Andrews said...

Funny... how amazingly beautiful they can be in those moments... not to mention incredibly powerful in their own right. While she thinks being carried around at 13 is seriously uncool, I still do my best. I just have to sneak up on her first!

TrueJerseyGirl said...

What a beautiful daddy-daughter moment. One you will never forget!

Joe said...

Word! Kids have radar. An auditorium of onlookers watching your a schools performance, band/choir w/e really is just window dressing for you and your kid. Everything fades away and its just the two of you. Respect.